strum
thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
and the reasonis you.


*OnaMaiwA*
Shu Fang a.k.a Fang Fang
*geNdeR*
joSei
*aGe*
hImiTsu
*d.o.b*
12th jAn
*LoVe*
KazOku & HDz & Friends of coz!
*wIshLiSt*
- Driving License
- Go Japan/Korea/Aust/China
- My own CAR VW yellow colour
- Fujitsu Laptop
- Levis Jeans/tee
- Hong Kong trip
- DKNY watch
- Perm Hair?
- A new wallet!

but everythingmeans nothing.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Tough Time
Yup, having a tough time at my current working place. I was always being said abt the things I'm doing. From head to toe and also to the way I serve. Today kena my manager said abt the way I serve customers and also abt my hair when I have already pin up my fringe. Come on!! I am not SLOPPY looking ok. Then she asked me to go and observed other branded boutique on how they serve ppl etc...
Today got 3 sales, 2 on reservation will be calling them on monday. Today one of my customer told me I am the most friendliest among my other colleague. I was the greeter and foot flow person. Then they said I no need to stand at the corner and so stiff, I have already been walking ard my area. Sometimes really feel like crying man... cause I have some experience that my colleague are all a fake. Say one thing infront and behind say another thing. I know this is the real working world. Really wonder why they like to be FAKEs.
Wonder how long I can survive at my current working place. Cause not feeling too happy, sometimes really wondering if I've made the wrong choice and some more I have not signed the appointment letter. Going to work for 3 weeks already and I have not signed my letter. Am I getting weaker or what. Why is my innerself crying?? And the outer me smilling to customers? Really feel good when they smile or even greeted me back. I'm the only one that greet all the customers who step into the shop and also greet them again when they leave the shop. Am I too low class or what?
But whatever it is, what I did are all from my heart, with sincerity. I feel very tired even though just merely 2 weeks plus. Am already trying very hard to attempt to them. Really felt like asking my manager what was the reason behind that she want to employ me. Really felt like asking her.
One day really like quitting, but still haning on. I cried during my working time that morning. Tonight while I was on my way home, teared more then 3 times, but tears did not roll down my cheek. Now my tears are really rolling down now. I have the choice to quit right IF I find the job is not suitable for me. I don't care how the others looked at me as long as I am happy with what I am doing right?
Today my feet HURTS. Till my toe nails seems to be breaking, till my big toe the nerve hurts. Tiring day for me today. What shld I do? Can someone tell me?? Need some advice or whatever. I miss my mom and also miss HDZ!! Where are you all?!?!?!
Fang Fang :+: Love On :+: 1:01:00 am
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i've waitedall my life.

