strum
thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
and the reasonis you.
*OnaMaiwA*
Shu Fang a.k.a Fang Fang
*geNdeR*
joSei
*aGe*
hImiTsu
*d.o.b*
12th jAn
*LoVe*
KazOku & HDz & Friends of coz!
*wIshLiSt*
- Driving License
- Go Japan/Korea/Aust/China
- My own CAR VW yellow colour
- Fujitsu Laptop
- Levis Jeans/tee
- Hong Kong trip
- DKNY watch
- Perm Hair?
- A new wallet!
but everythingmeans nothing.
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Relaxed
Here to update on my happenings. Came back to malaysia on tuesday evening, came back with my mother and grandmother. It was a last min decision for me to come in, as on tuesday morning had servere cramp again and my mom suggest me to come in malaysia to go for a massage.
My grandmother called my dad and told him that she is bringing me in, as I vomitted till like on tap. =x
Wednesday afternoon went to see the therapist and when she massage she straight away know that I am extreme stress and bottled up all my things to myself and told my mom that I am not happy at all, pretend to be happy infront of people only when in actual fact, I was over stressed. She said if I dont receive the treatment soon, I can go crazy sooner or later part of my life.
She adviced me to stay in malaysia for a month to receive the therapy course. So today is my 3rd session, I need to attend the therapy daily. She's helping me to unblock all the blockage in my body.
There are some food I can not consume at the moment like noodles, glutenious rice, coconut, vineger etc. Nothing much to do for me here except read books and surf net, play neopets and chat with friends.
Am surprised that I have depression. I can only helped myself, suddenly realised so many ppl are concerned abt me. My master, xiu ling and my buddy, tini and also PY and also hdz. Chat with them online.
I can't go anywhere except the night market and supermarket. No friends here but am relaxed over here even though I dont know malay and canto. Can understand canto abit but dont speak much. 2 times all alone in my mom shop, my mom just went for dinner and to watch ppl dancing. So I've prepared my own dinner twice, ABC soup! Wanted to go out now, but no place for me to go except watson, the store, another supermarket and the night market.
I havent told my dad abt me staying over here at malaysia for a month and my brother and sis, but did msg my bro-in-law abt my situation. My cousin knows abt my situation and she also agreed that I shld stay here at the moment to receive the therapy and relaxed for the time being rather than to suffer every month for my servere cramp.
Will be back by beginning of next month. I will missed out 4 parties, PY's, Tian Hua, Shan & Min.
Sorry gal, for not able to attend the party of urs. Min was hopping me that I could stay at her 1 wk chalet but too bad, I'm at malaysia. Take loads of photos k, I want to see even though I am away in malaysia.
You all will see me the cheerful fang again when I am back home k. Learnt to take things easily. Love you all and treat me the same way k, even though I have this illness at the moment. Take Care!!!
Fang Fang :+: Love On :+: 6:36:00 pm
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i've waitedall my life.
